My Story 

After a dysfunctional upbringing full of struggle, poverty, chaos, unpredictability, instability and unhappiness, I numbed away my pain during my teen years lighting up the pleasure centres in my brain with adrenalin rushes, drugs and alcohol. I was headed down a very destructive path, then, I got pregnant when I was 19 years old and it was my reason to figure my s#it out! Becoming a mom is what initiated my personal development and awakening out of deep unconsciousness. It did not happen all at once, it has been and continues to be a beautiful unfolding.

I did not grow up with positive role models around me and didn't have a much of a support system, so I started to learn and ask for help where ever I could - two extremely valuable gifts from my childhood are resourcefulness and resilience. I'm blessed and grateful to have had recently met a mentor, who I consider my dad to this day. With his support and guidance, my focus and actions shifted in a life changing way.

At four months pregnant, while I was finishing up grade 12, I found myself working 3 jobs in 3 different towns to get enough hours for maternity leave, dumped for another girl and needing to find a home. I found an amazing little cabin for dirt cheap and tried to figure out what I was going to do with my life. 

I wanted a career where I was helping people, could work for myself, have flexibility with my schedule and didn't have to work full time so I could have time with my son. I jumped through the hoops and got funding for school and basic living from the government for education so I could take care of myself and get out of the system. 

I moved to Victoria, BC, and started the 3000 hour full time Registered Massage Therapy program when my son was 14 months old. I single parented him until he was 4 years old. I was living off minimal money, but I was in an environment teaching me the value of health, so I found a way to invest in mine. Started working out. Eating more nourishing foods. Quit hard drugs. Got married. Lived a superficial luxurious life. Tried to keep up with the Joneses. Opened a few wellness centres. Closed a couple wellness centres. Got divorced.

Went through major personal development and reconstructed my life. Realized that what really matters is deep...it is felt and you need to do the work to uncover it. Becoming more conscious and breaking free of old patterns that don't serve you. Rebuilding new neural connections and caring for your mind, body and soul. I quit drinking alcohol. Travelled and made the most money in a year then I ever had in my life. Had so many plans....

Then, Covid! Me, and basically everyone in the world went and still are going though unimaginable challenges, changes and set backs.

I felt like I was going crazy when I was trying to figure out what the f*ck is happening in our world. I was so stressed. Ungrounded. Worried. Afraid. My son was concerned about my mental health. It was the trigger that stopped me from going further into the dark. I am very compassionate and empathic and my heart hurts for all the pain and suffering that is happening. And I like to believe that terrible things have to happen to wake people up from their limited perspective. I re-centered myself and went on a journey to figure out what is really important to me... 

Love.

Peace.

Joy.

Growth.

Purpose.

My mission has been to learn how to be the best mom possible, to give my son the opportunities that I didn't have growing up, to enjoy life, to shine my light to help others, to be thankful, to set an example and not just survive, but flourish. 

Coming back to my values and getting clear on what truly matters is an important skill I've learned when times get tough. 

It's been a process of hard work, going through challenges, learning, growing, trial and error to get to where I am at now...and it has been worth it all! I can confidently say I am more awake and peaceful than I have ever been in my life:) And it's not because I have figured it all out! I still have problems, we all do, I have just learned skills to live life optimally regardless of outside circumstances.